^_^ <--- again not my mood

Yesterday, I got yelled at by my boyfriend's father for something I didn't do. He told me that if his son wasn't at his house in 45 minutes he would call the cops. First problem, I didn't have his son. When I told him this he asked me where he was. I told him I did not know, for in reality I didn't know, I could assume he was at St. Paul's, but I didn't say that. He told me I was lying and that I would never see him (being my boyfriend) again because of this. At this point I said excuse me and handed the phone to my mother. I was told by her he said I was a toxic influence on his son. I later found out that the reason they couldn't find my boyfriend was because he overslept and was in his dorm the whole time. I can't keep food down. I'm constantly paranoid of someone showing up at my door. I felt okay today at my voice lesson, and driving home from my vocal coaches' house, driving to her house I listened to "Umbrella" by Rihanna over and over again to keep my thoughts at bay. Right now, I feel like I'm being watched. My energy level is at zero. My paranoia and fear is at 100%. I'm afraid to go on facebook. I'm scared to answer the phone. I'm scared to move around my house. I am at a loss for what to do. Help.

^_^ <-- I wish this described my mood more often.

Sometimes a horrible haircut is all you need to realize how insecure you are... *sighs*

^_^ LIfe spun me into a black hole and I climbed out again

And now I am sitting at my computer, talking to my boyfriend while co-writing a story/rpg with him, which is a blast.

My mom drove me to UNH to pick classes. My schedule is nutty, but I like it that way. Though Monday's are a tad full and Thursday's are sadly almost vacant. I got the voice teacher I wanted!!!!

I had Indian food for dinner... and yeah... I don't really have anything meaningful or important to say right now, but when I saw the last post from ANYONE was in June... I decided somebody needed to post SOMETHING!!! Get on it people!