Just so I know I said it.

I'm going to write a book.
Not like I've been saying; "I want to write a book. Eventually. Someday. 60 years from now."
No. I'm going to write one. Like, now.
There's no subject. Yet. I'm just going to write something that needs to be written.

I'm such a fucking idiot.
But I'm doing it.

You're my witnesses.
Fatally yours,

MP
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* - this is why i hate white people..and growing up

as much as i hate to say it im growing up. it sucks..but what can i really do to stop it? theres no going back in life. no rewind button or pause. this isnt one of our little video games. when we go down we dont get a bonus life. what can we do? we can live. we can live our lives to the fullest. sure we can look back at past years but we need to focus on the now. theres no restart button folks. we can only go on from here. so what am i going to do you ask? im going to look ahead to the things i will do, im going to stand with the friends i have now and those that i will have. i will fight my fights, win or lose, i will fix my wounds and get back up. and i will look life straight in the face and say that im not fucking scared. i may be getting older but im still the same boy you've always known. and hes not going anywhere

^_^ In which I decide I should probably start looking to change my major...

After my second day of classes I realized something. I don't like my ed class. The idea of teaching a bunch of squirming pre-pubescent boys how to use a snare drum, dealing with their parents, the school board, etc. DOES NOT APPEAL! My goal... and it still is my goal, is to help people through music. Well my psych text, which I find FASCINATING has led me back to an idea... I want to study music therapy. Music therapists work in hospital, clinical, school and private settings helping people with all sorts of disabilities and mental illnesses of all ages. THAT, my friends, is what I want to do. Unfortunately my school doesn't have the major. I'm thinking of talking to my advisor. I would need to double major in Psychology and Music to get the pre-reqs for the master's program in Music Therapy. Therefore I would need to change from an ed degree (from which it is IMPOSSIBLE to double major) to a performance degree, and start taking lots of psych courses. This switch may mean I'd have to take summer courses in order to graduate in 4 years... but I don't mind, since I wanted to take summer courses anyways. I'm going to wait until the semester is out though. I already bought my books for all of my classes (well actually I still need to get 4 more), plus I'd only be changing ONE of my classes (percussion method and education), this semester. Worse comes to worse, I transfer to a school with the program. I only know of one school in New England that has the major, and that my friends is good 'ol Berklee... =/