Ok, serious talk now.
I'm not bad looking am I? For those of you that know me and have met me in person, am I ugly per se? I don't believe I am. Is it my personality then? Could that be what drives the female of my species to completely and totally ignore the fact that I even exist? If not, then what? I have pondered this question for months now. My musing have filled up 2 dry-erase boards, 1 small marble notebook and 3 sheets of notes saved on a small flash drive. Now I know to you all this may seem strange, maybe obsessive over the topic, but hear me out. For most of my 18 years of existence on this little mudball we call planet earth I have felt alone. Even when surrounded by family and friends I feel this wound inside me. Almost as if there is something missing. Now let me tell you, this feeling...is not a good one. It's horrible, disgusting, vile, and haunting. So there is my reason for this "research." Now where was I? Ah yes, so there lie my musings. So now dearest NLC, I sit before this computer awaiting some answers. No, Im not throwing myself a pity party, no this isnt a joke, and no I'm not ok. I am simply looking for answers among some of the most astute minds it has ever been my pleasure to probe, and among my dear friends. And now I take my leave. This post will not have the usual Obama blame session, because for once I do not feel that this is in any way his fault.
-Yours Always-
Martin Joseph Headley
Alias: s0m3blackguy
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